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Journey to the best health of my life (yes, the journey includes olives)


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Waking up crying

Have you ever woken up crying? I have. In fact, I did this morning. I’m not unhappy right now. Things are good. I’m well on my way to completing Whole 30 and Neila Rey’s 30 days of strength. I feel great!  So why did I wake up crying?

I don’t remember my dream, but my first thought was losing my husband.  That’s all it took.  I imagined being in hospital and being told he had passed.  My heart hurt and my eyes filled with tears.  So, I guess, the love that I feel for him made me cry.  That’s not such a bad reason, right?  He is still here by my side and I hope we have many more memories together before either one of us has to learn to cope without the other.

One thing I’ve learned is that I am a worrier.  Not warrior, worrier.  I worry about the future.  About what might happen.  My mind takes me to worst situation and I wonder how I would cope.  Life can change in a split second.  I’ve seen it happen too many times.  I know I should enjoy the life I have today and not think about what I can’t control, but sometimes it is easier said than done.

Do you worry too?  Or are you better than me at enjoying life for what it is?  How do you keep worries about the future from controlling your thoughts today?