Hello everyone! It has been a while since I posted, but I promise you I am still alive and kicking. I had a couple of weeks off work and really enjoyed not doing much! It was my first staycation in many years. I enjoyed not being controlled by time. I enjoyed doing exactly what I wanted to do. I enjoyed staying away from the computer. I enjoyed going to sleep when I was tired and waking up when my body was ready. I really enjoyed The West Wing (yes, I’m a few years behind). The two weeks away from the office was wonderful. I felt free.
On Sunday night I faced the daunting task of waking up for work. My body had not been up at 4:50 a.m. for two weeks. Although I generally enjoy my work, I was dreading stepping into the office. In fact, I had been dreading it for days (maybe even 50% of my staycation!). I do not enjoy being controlled by an alarm. I do not enjoy having to get to the station in time for my train. I do not enjoy prepping lunch in advance. The freedom of the previous two weeks had passed and I felt that sinking feeling in my stomach.
Monday was not as bad as my sinking stomach thought it would be. Yes, it took me a while to prep the night before. Yes, it was tough to get out of bed. Yes, I ended up running for the train. But, dare I say it? I actually enjoyed having some routine back in my life. I at a nutritious breakfast and felt energized for the day. Lunchtime rolled around and I ate a very colorful one (mixed salad and kebab). My two weeks of freedom meant all my regular planning had been thrown out the window. I just ate what was on hand when I was hungry and, shockingly, it was not always the best choice. Routine has allowed me to start making good choices again. Before I knew it the end of the work day had come. I smiled as I sat on the train because it was not that bad after-all.
My staycation reminded me to enjoy all the freedoms I have without allowing events I can’t control to take over my mind. I must enjoy the moment because tomorrow will always come, whether or not I like what is coming.
2015 is around the corner. I’m going to work on finding more opportunities to feel free, and to let go of feelings about the future that hold me back today.
Have a safe and wonderful new year celebration everyone! And remember, enjoy the moment!