I’ve finished my second round of Whole 30. In fact, I finished a few days ago. I have been wanting to write a post, but (and I’m being brutally honest here!) I had mixed feelings on the day I finished. I was extremely proud of myself. I still am. I did 30 full days of sticking to the rules. By the seventh day I noticed that my shirt was feeling loose around my tummy. By the end of Whole30 my pants were falling off as I ran up the stairs for the train. My energy was up; my skin was glowing; my system felt clean. Result! Why wasn’t I jumping up and down? (aside from the fact I did not want my
trousers pants to fall off!)
I had to think long and hard about that question. Like many of you, I have been struggling for years with my weight. Even with Whole30 success it did not feel like enough. I started Whole30 weighing in at 238lbs. I finished 16lbs lighter at 222lbs. Before you all go crazy and jump on me – I get it, 16lbs is a GREAT loss. I’ll be honest – it was not enough for me. I wanted to lose 100lbs yesterday.
I spent the last few days changing the way I think. My brain needed to be retrained. Success is measured in small steps, and not just one big step. It’s all about the small steps we take on our journey that will turn into that big change we want to see. That decision I made to not consume something off plan was a small step. That decision I made to to exercise was a small step. That decision I made to give 110% to Whole30 was a small step. Small steps are enough. Small steps lead to big changes.
My results are enough. To me, the weight loss is a small step. It’s a small percentage of the long journey ahead of me. However, it took a lifetime for me to get to where I am today and I cannot expect to lose 100lbs overnight. In addition, I now truly appreciate all the results. I am on this journey to be the healthiest version of myself that I can be. I have seen many positive changes while completing Whole30. They are all small wins. If I can continue the small wins I will reach my goal.
Whole30 did not just guide me to eating nutritious well-balanced meals. Whole30 challenged my mind. It led me through a path of emotions that has truly changed my life. It forced me to open my eyes and now I view my successes differently. I am going to stop putting myself down and instead celebrate all my successes – big or small!
I looked in the mirror this morning and I felt beautiful. Beautiful because my body is well-nourished; beautiful because I am taking small steps to improve my health; beautiful because I am true to myself; beautiful because when I smile I’m truly smiling. My husband tells me all the time that I’m beautiful, but rarely in my life have I truly believed it. Today, I believe it.