However, some days it’s really hard to stick to the plan. On those days, in moments of weakness, I need to find a way to keep myself motivated to do the right thing for my health. One way I do that is by glancing at my motivation list. My motivation list reminds me why I am taking this journey to be the healthiest woman I can be. Below are 10 motivating factors on my list (of over 30!), in no particular order.
Some of these may seem trivial, but they all provide me with motivation. Do you have a list? What motivates you in moments of weakness?
My motivations: I look forward to…
1. …a healthier body
I would like to have a child. I want to be the healthiest version of myself before I get (if I get) pregnant. I know people of all shapes and sizes have healthy pregnancies, and healthy children, but I need to know that I have tried my best to be as healthy as possible before carrying a child into this world. I’m at high risk for so many things with the fat percentage I currently have that it is a necessity for me to lose weight – not just for me, but for my possible future child.
2. …confidence for adventure
There are a number of things I want to try, but my weight has always held me back. I want to go paragliding, parasailing, skydiving, ziplining … to name just a few! I’m too nervous to do these things at my current weight, and I would never ever want photo/video evidence of these activities (looking like I do) – but then again, I would want to share photo/video evidence with my family and friends – see my predicament?
3. …not being the fat one in the group
I’m the largest person in my group of friends. I was at at a baby shower for a friend where we played some games. One of the games was guessing the circumference of the pregnant lady’s waist using a string. I put the string around my waist and well, it was much bigger than her waist (at 7 months pregnant!). It was heart-breaking. I don’t want to be the fat/large/overweight one anymore.
4. …my husband sweeping me off my feet
Yes, literally. I’m a hopeless romantic. I see those pictures of men holding the woman they love in their arms. My husband is very loving and gives me lots of hugs, but I want him to be able to carry me, to sweep me off my feet.
5. …not dreading vacations
My husband loves to dive, and he got me interested in snorkelling. I really do enjoy it. However, I hate the thought of going to the beach. I hate taking off my sarong and getting into the water. Instead of being truly excited about our exotic vacations, I stress about my weight, and how I will look on the beach. I even love swimming and I know it’s great exercise. However, I’m so nervous about going to the pool. I’ve done it a few times, but it doesn’t get easier. I hope that dropping the weight helps me feel more relaxed about vacations and swimming.
6. …being able to cross my legs
I am envious of all those woman who can elegantly put one leg over the other leg. I can kind of do it, but it’s not comfortable and it looks far from elegant!
7. …being able to eat what I feel like in public
There’s a woman on my train who is constantly snacking. I wouldn’t dream of eating in public like that – I’d be so embarrassed. I feel like I’d be judged because I’m fat (ie: all I do is eat which is why I’m fat). Being able to enjoy the food I eat and not feeling guilty about it, even when I’m in public, is something I hope to experience.
8. …having fun shopping
I hate shopping. There’s a very small number of stores that I can buy from and nothing seems to look good. When I find something that fits I buy it in all the colours. I want to be able to buy from ‘thin people’ stores. I want to be in a body where I can pick and choose what I wear – wear it because I like it, not because it fits. I’m tired of hiding under large and long boxy tops! I want to be able to wear short colourful tops and not worry about a huge tummy. I feel like colours make me look bigger right now and make me stand out more. I look forward to a wardrobe makeover.
9. …being in the front in a photo
I spend most of my time behind a camera. When it’s needed I go in front of the camera. I always try to hide at least half of me. I want to be happy enough to show all of me.
10. …sharing before and after photos
I look forward to sharing my before and after pictures with my WordPress family (and the whole world!). I want to be able to look back at old photos and feel really proud of my accomplishments. I want to be proud of who I am, inside and out.