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Me. My hardest photo.

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This is me on New Years day 2014. These are the hardest photos I have ever had to take.  This is what 5’2″ and approx 236lbs looks like on me.

Me. New Years Day 2014

Me. New Years Day 2014

If you’re anything like me then when the camera comes out you do the following:

  • Pull your top out of your tummy rolls and try to stretch it a bit so it doesn’t cling to you and show your rolls
  • Suck your tummy in
  • Frantically try to find a spot where you can hide half/most of yourself behind someone
  • Put on your biggest, bravest smile even though your head is spinning with how huge you feel
  • Keep your fingers crossed that the photo doesn’t end up on Facebook

The hardest part when taking theses photos was to not suck my tummy in.  I realized that I don’t even think about it before it happens.  I set the camera on timer and just as I heard the 3 quick beeps I instinctively sucked my tummy in – and then had to retake the photo.

The second hardest thing was looking at the photos.  It forced me to look at my body for what it is.  What I think I look like, and what I actually look like has to be in sync;  that’s the only way I can move forward.  Usually my true self hides behind baggy clothes.  I don’t remember the last time I looked at myself in the mirror naked.  It’s time to stop hiding from myself.

So, let me state the obvious – I have high fat in my abdominal area.  If I got a dollar every time someone asked if I was pregnant I would be a rich woman!  In all seriousness, it hurts when I hear that question because I would love to be a mother.  The high fat in this area means I am high risk for so many health issues.  To achieve my resolution, and to be in a healthier place to carry a baby, I have to reduce my body fat percentage.  I know that I can’t pick and choose where the fat comes off (and it always comes off the problem areas last!), but my fat percentage must come down in order to reach my overall health goals.  In addition I have wiggly arms/legs,rolls everywhere, and a big “muffin top” – here’s to looking and feeling great while reaching my health goals!

The third hardest thing is putting these photos on my blog.  I took the photo to motivate myself.  It’s a bit nerve-racking (and embarrassing) knowing that anyone in the world can click on my post and see my photo.  But I put it here to show you that you are not alone.  Also, I am so disproportionate.  Most pictures I see are of women who are larger overall.  I have a small chest and a large tummy – I can’t be the only one out there who has this body shape!  And I can’t be the only who wishes she could pop her tummy like a balloon (seriously, I do! – aaaah, if only it was that easy!)

This time next year I will post updated photos.  I hope that there is improvement in my body, my mind and my overall health.  Wait, there will be improvement – my year is off to a great start and I plan to keep the momentum going!

2014 is going to be a journey and I look forward to sharing it with all of you!

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Author: Foxy-O

I’m a 30-something female who’s striving to be the healthiest woman I can be through diet and exercise. In early 2013 I was introduced to the world of Paleo. I completed Whole30 and had fantastic results. I had finally found something that worked for me! My blog is a jumble of my thoughts as I take the journey through my life. Somewhere for me to unleash my views, my challenges, my failures and my successes (hopefully!).

14 thoughts on “Me. My hardest photo.

  1. Hi Foxy-O, I’m doing keto now, and I’m trying to lose 27 by May. CarolinaFitness and I are hosting a Spring to May Challenge. No pro’s here, just fellow bloggers. No fees, nothing to buy. If you’re interested, visit Carolina’s blog:

    http://newfoundfitness.wordpress.com/challenge/

    Good luck on your journey!

    Rob

  2. hello, I am just looking through wordpress for other motivational people to follow. I too am on a weight loss journey. Or more so a new healthier lifestyle.

    Feel free to follow me. I blog about my family, life and such and about weight loss.

  3. Foxy-o I know exactly what you mean about pictures…..
    My latest way about trying to avoid being in pictures is to be the picture taker…. but that only works sometimes; since they go but we want you in the picture!
    Good Luck on your plan… I too am planning to make 2014 be the year of loss for me.

    • Thanks for stopping by KJ! I hear you – i’m a big picture taker too. I’m looking forward to the day where I enjoy being in photos. I had a small experience of that a few years ago and I felt liberated. That’s a story for another time 😉 Good luck on your plan too – 2014 is going to be our year!

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  5. There is nothing worse than going on holiday with a snap-happy family and then being confronted with more than a 100 photos of yourself from all angles. That’s what happened to me and that was my trigger to start my new healthy journey. So trust me – I know EXACTLY what you mean!
    I admire the fact that you are doing it this way because I know how hard it must have been to do this… but you know what? The pics will become your biggest inspiration, your biggest reason and your biggest motivation to stay on your new path. You just wait and see how incredible it is to look at your visual journey and just how proud it makes you feel when you see how far you have come. I’ve got mine stuck on my fridge door and the difference between then and now is the greatest morale booster ever!
    I’m rooting for you – so hang in there and stay strong – you have the right attitude and great inner strength!!!

    • Thanks so much for your support and kind words! It is great to have people like you to share the journey with. I will hang in there for sure – 2014 is the year of health!!

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