This morning I decided to finally weigh myself. 236lbs – that’s how much I weigh (and I’m 5′ 2″). I know that I shouldn’t be ruled by the scale. There was a time in my life where I weighed myself 4 to 5 times a day. Anyone else? I know that was crazy. I’m past that. Numbers are not the be all and end all of everything. I hope that as my weight comes down, and I get leaner, I will not care about the numbers. However, I’d be lieing if I said I didn’t care right now. I have a big chunk of weight to lose and I was scared to weigh myself. I just didn’t want to see how much I weighed. Being scared of who I am – completely – is not healthy and won’t help me to move forward. Now there is nothing I don’t know about myself. I’m going to call that success #1 for today! I’ll weigh myself again in 30 days, but i’ll remind myself that it’s just a small part of the big change that I’m in the process of making.